i should apply my new learning to the tales, and toe the line as the
cliche goes, to make reality my dreams from infinity… i have built many
artistic patterns now, whether they be written works or paint-by-numbers
on splashes of gouache, or the musical canvases that intrigue and
beguile me to no end without reasons through the logic and confusion…
the attractive urge to spend the wishes i do have at my disposal,
managing their moderation one has to step into the fear minus any guilt
that might betray the real focus, and sometimes the goals may seem too
far stretched by this suspension of disbelief….burning the bridge
dogmatique… the boost to self-esteem is unimaginable from below, the
ivory tower has but one key for each person attempting their best at
storming the walls, but no metaphysical grappling hooks have we… you
have to blow the fucker up, and catapult yourself beyond the crude
competitive pace that everyone has set for themselves, to be a champion
you cannot wait….most of those cliches feel like potent examples of
micro advertising for reverse psychology from which the masses will
feed… the mind is one of the few tools we all have within that allows us
to understand and digest all those creative fluctuations that occur
beyond the veil of a perceived reality, the body is the interactive
being into which a future can be made a functional probability, and the
soul fits somewhere in-between and links all three together as the
emotional awareness or glue which keeps them entwined… many people wish
they could reset their lives somehow, and these deep-seated regrets end
up hurting a less-introspective person, triangulating the instances
where these problems first become apparent is the beginning step… i try
not to rest my wishes on things that there is no hope for attaining, and
anyone can attain what they desire if they just allow themselves to act
without inhibition, there are too many excuses and justifications
wasting the energy to create a synthesis of forces instead of the
polarity presented in an average black/ white model of reality….where
there is no grey area and is the false assumption to make…