10.2.11

Behind the days of rest.

i should apply my new learning to the tales, and toe the line as the cliche goes, to make reality my dreams from infinity… i have built many artistic patterns now, whether they be written works or paint-by-numbers on splashes of gouache, or the musical canvases that intrigue and beguile me to no end without reasons through the logic and confusion… the attractive urge to spend the wishes i do have at my disposal, managing their moderation one has to step into the fear minus any guilt that might betray the real focus, and sometimes the goals may seem too far stretched by this suspension of disbelief….burning the bridge dogmatique… the boost to self-esteem is unimaginable from below, the ivory tower has but one key for each person attempting their best at storming the walls, but no metaphysical grappling hooks have we… you have to blow the fucker up, and catapult yourself beyond the crude competitive pace that everyone has set for themselves, to be a champion you cannot wait….most of those cliches feel like potent examples of micro advertising for reverse psychology from which the masses will feed… the mind is one of the few tools we all have within that allows us to understand and digest all those creative fluctuations that occur beyond the veil of a perceived reality, the body is the interactive being into which a future can be made a functional probability, and the soul fits somewhere in-between and links all three together as the emotional awareness or glue which keeps them entwined… many people wish they could reset their lives somehow, and these deep-seated regrets end up hurting a less-introspective person, triangulating the instances where these problems first become apparent is the beginning step… i try not to rest my wishes on things that there is no hope for attaining, and anyone can attain what they desire if they just allow themselves to act without inhibition, there are too many excuses and justifications wasting the energy to create a synthesis of forces instead of the polarity presented in an average black/ white model of reality….where there is no grey area and is the false assumption to make…